I'm ... yes, still alive

so there's been a few things since the last posting.

I've been assigned to go for a 6 month sales training. that, means that i'll be going around japan carrying around our company's products around to surveyors and contractors trying to sell an expensive piece of equipment by conducting demos and stuff. yes, stuff. I still don't really know what the hell I'm supposed to do.

no need to mention that i've been a bit blue for a while. but that led me to thinking about me. and ken. and lisa. we've always thought that we were, well ... the average. we've always had people we'd admire for their linguistic skills, and it never really hit us that we were rather a minority.

it's not that we didn't work hard to achieve this "native bilingual" status ... but we were just somehow born into a family that had an ideal environment. we still find flaws in our linguistic abilities, and have this sense of failure at only being to wield two languages. our father has always used three languages, and our goal was to always surpass that number. I'm not sure about my siblings, but I've never really taken people close to me age wise, because we're all in the process of learning. i don't know how to say this right ... but that's just how it is.

and i don't know if i can go to Jin or Lam's wedding. or John Mayer's concert.

fuck that for going to sales for 6 months. and i didn't volunteer myself into this either. fuck that for all the cold glares.